Went to see my doctor this morning at the AKH. He explained me everything about the operation and already gave me a date for it: 30th October. I will have to stay for at least 10 days in the AKH. I am scared because everything what he said sounded so disgusting, all about cutting flesh and needles and saws and breaking bones... There will be some titan plates and some screws in my mouth for the rest of my life. How nice is that? And I have to go to some blood appointment to start my own blood bank so that they are not obliged to use somebody else's blood in case there is too much bleeding...

GOSH!!! It sounded a lot easier and less horrifying when my dentist explained me that two years ago...

In the afternoon I was starting to move my stuff around in my room. Alex and Daniel came for our second design meeting and we exchanged a lot of ideas. There is still so much to do and I am still excited about the project.

By coincidence, I found the webpage again that I was designing for the admittance into the college last year. I still think it is pretty. Neat!

I was planning to go to a workout session tonight but lately, I don't really feel like practising any sport...

I told Sandra yesterday who my "study colleague" was. How funny. She had already guessed it right. Is this so obvious?

Got up late. Felt better. A bit.

Tobias declared he would drive me to Ikea. It was nice to spend some time with him. How well do I know my brother? Not very much, not very much about his life either but he is a good and funny and honest person. I can rely on him. He helped me a lot with the furniture and the construction.

Afterwards I was a bit stressed to be on time at the drumming course. I let myself fall completely. Holding a djembe in my hand is fascinating. Drumming a rhythm is amazing.

Sandra came a bit delayed. Some of her photos will be presented at the Photokina, a very famous photograph exhibition in Germany. She is very happy about it. We went to Hollerei after the course and spoke a bit.

I am sitting in my room now, nearly drunk. So many negative thoughts going through my mind. Revenge, revenge, revenge...

Ahja, the response from SWR about Axel F. Althaus>
N A C H T C A F é "Mensch & Hund"
Sendung: Freitag, 08. Oktober 2004, 22.00 Uhr im SÜDWEST-Fernsehen
Wiederholung: Samstag, 09. Oktober 2004, 8.45 Uhr im SÜDWEST-Fernsehen

Gäste:

Bettina Böttinger

Dackel Nicki kläffte sie beim Autofahren schier in den Wahnsinn


Ortlieb Lothary

Hält die Züchtung sogenannter ?Kampfhunde? für völlig legitim


Silke Ruschke

Ein Mastino riss ihr die halbe Unterlippe heraus


Christiane Rohn

Gibt zum Tode verurteilten Tieren eine zweite Chance


Axel Althaus

Macht sich mit seiner Internetseite zum Hundefeind der Nation


Manuela Vobach

Verwöhnt ihren Mops Scarlett mit allem erdenklichen Luxus


An der Bar:

Caroline Dahl

Arbeitet in der Kinder- und Jugendpsychiatrie des Stuttgarter ?Olgäle? mit

Therapiehund Teddy


Zitat:

Je besser ich die Männer kenne, desto lieber mag ich Hunde. (Madame de

Stael)


http://www.bettina-boettinger.de/

Homepage von Bettina Böttinger

http://www.wdr.de/tv/couchfuerallefelle/flash.phtml

Homepage von ?Eine Couch für alle Felle?

http://www.hundefeind.de

Homepage von Axel Althaus

http://www.der-gnadenhof.de

Homepage von Christiane Rohn

http://www.modamo.de

Homepage von Manuela Vobach

http://www.gb-f.de/lotharys/

Homepage von Ortlieb Lothary

http://www.gb-f.de

Gesellschaft der Bullterrier-Freunde

http://www.olgahospital.de/psychiatrie.htm

Homepage der Klinik für Kinder- und Jugendpsychiatrie des Olgahospitals

Stuttgart

Unsere Internet-Adresse lautet: www.swr.de/nachtcafe

How can three hours and one telephone call from "my" guy just destroy two months of hard earned self-esteem? I am so down, unhappy, thinking of him again ALL THE TIME. I want this madness to stop!!! F***.

My body feels different as well. I took a 20min shower yesterday before I went to work because I was so cold and empty inside. I could not concentrate on working all night long.

Could not sleep either the whole day. Took a long sun bath in our back garden and went on to re-design. I am very happy with the outcome already.

I found some weird anti-vegan pages while I was surfing on the web. www.antivegan.de - There is also a Wikipedia entry - but it is useful for other vegan links. - This is hillarious!!! I can#t believe anyone takes the content seriously... Apparently, the owner of those websites appeared once on TV. I also found a very interesting article about all forms of eating philosophies.

Sandra was phoning today because we are going to our first djembe course tomorrow night.

Sleeping and eating after I "awoke".

Afterwards I spent my late afternoon and evening with some design suggestions for business cards, the website, business letters and an information brochure for kiraly.at. I got quite hooked into that...
Some things I like include:
Norman Foster
Yellow
Sonnenziegelhaus
CI Portal Deutschland
habitat especially the sequences where somebody is using the rooms

Phoned my mum and Heinrich because I am trying to get my room FINALLY equipped with everything I need so that I can unpack the rest of my things and LIVE in my room and not just STAY there. We'll be going to Ikea on Monday. :-)

Dominika told me yesterday at work that she is leaving the Altwienerhof in the end of september. Long story. I was shocked. But what else can one expect from a boss like that?

Revenge is what I am looking for with my dear study colleague. And I know exactly how I can take it. Just have to wait a bit. My heart is broken but this time it cannot be healed. Never ever again. I want to hurt him as much as he hurt me in the past year. He deserves that.

Veli has sent me the link with the photos of her wedding.

Got to see the doctor at the AKH early this morning. They said that depending on the situation the operation could be made as early as October. They have to wait for an analysis of today's x-rays. I have the next appointment already on Tuesday. :-/

Went to the library afterwards to get some books on Graphic Design and Corporate Design. Met up with Reinhard for a poi session in the Burggarten. I wonder why he is offering his friendship so generously. This is very rare. It feels good to spend some time with crazy and funny people like him.

Will go for some aerobic tonight and then to work at the Altwienerhof. I am planning to do something for Veli's wedding present and some graphic design.

If I consider that I should have attended college today - no way!!!

How much fun that was again yesterday at the second 111 women meeting at Eva's! I am really enjoying these meetings among women now. They are so cool and funny!!! I stayed there until 02am and went back through whole Vienna by bike - in a pretty drunk state. And it took me a loooong time to get back home...

Was trying to sleep but it did not work much because of the alcohol level. So now, just half an hour ago, I woke up and got dressed. Will do a little running session tonight because it is really sunny, warm and nice outside.

And go to bed early.

The appointment with my doctor at the AKH is tomorrow. I am really afraid what they will say about the operation. I cannot imagine that it will be soon, at least I hope. :-/

Got up very early yesterday morning, first day at college. Since they have moved location it is now situated in the first district and it took me 30min to go there by bike.
Chaos began again. What a run down and old building! I am not ready yet to see all my study colleagues again after the nice & normal summer. That's why I have decided to take another week's break and wait until the chaos has diminuished a bit. ;-)

There is anyway so much to do and organise. My room is not yet really "ready" yet or like I want it to have - I am still missing a book storage, a sofa, a bed, some lights and storage room. Many of the paper boxes are still unpacked. Tobias will hopefully help me with that and maybe I can persuade my mum to go to Ikea one of these days. It's just a pity that it is so far away from the city centre...

The wedding present for Veli as another project that needs to be completed soon and I am very happy that Clemens is going to help me with the photo shooting. I already have the content, now only the "form" needs to be decided upon.

I was going with Veli for a long coffee yesterday and we talked our summer over. She is very relaxed at the moment, and I am happy for her. About the college: Well, we share the same feelings. ;-/ Maybe more about the people there...

I slept long today and went for some clothing shopping in the morning. Afterwards I met up with Dominika, a working colleague from the hotel at the Museumsquartier. She has many problems at the hotel and with some other staff and that was why she wanted to talk to me. I was very amazed that she is only 23 because she comes across much more older/mature. Hopefully my advice could help her a bit. She is very sad about many things in her life and does not know how to handle them. She talked about wanting to see a psychiatrist. What can I say to that? I think it's not necessary in her case because only seems to be a phase in her life and she has been analysing so much already.

I started working on some design propositions for kiraly.at yesterday and am quite content with the outcome.

Philipp has called me to say that there is a meeting with some other people from the college tonight. I am not sure if I want to go there. My heart wants to but my mind does not want to. I know it is better not to go because it will just make me sad again to see what they all consume without any second thoughts. Sandra has also rang to say that there is another 111 meeting tonight. I rather prefer that. It will be fun!

I will call Daniel as well to ask him if he wants to do a little poi session tomorrow together at the Burggarten. Reinhard said he would like to meet up and practise a bit next week.

Christine has icq-d me for a long time yesterday. She is happy about the university but not happy with her living situation. What a shame! I am happy that she does not have any problems with her English.

So, let's see what the next days will bring.

Went for shopping this morning, took a sun bath in our back garden and read a bit in some Indian recipe books. I love the spices they are using. It is my plan to learn to cook a new dish every week. Indian cuisine is great for that!

Alex picked me up with his car at 0300pm because we were to meet up in the outskirts of Vienna with Josef Kiraly, the owner of a low energy house enterprise. The design of a corporate identity, the relaunch of the website, the creation of some printing items (like business cards, business paper,...), the publication of a small architecture book (more artistic than technical) and the filming of an image dvd will be the content of our project. He really needs something different...

Alex gave me the link to a working colleague of his. This is very interesting. He was/is working at the Institut fuer Licht und Farbe.